Monday, I was watching TV and a question was asked that has been parked in the back of my head ever since. “What would I do if I weren’t afraid?” This question really fired me up. How many things do I not do because I am afraid? Did I realize that most of the things I’d love to try, I have put on the back burner because I am simply too scared to put myself out there in new ways? This is so intriguing and fascinating to me. If I asked myself this about each of the ideas that parade through my head daily before I wrote them off, how varied and interesting could my projects be? If I pursued a handful of these ideas, how much more exciting and satisfying would my life be?
I am someone who has 50 ideas/day that excite me and thrill me. But that little voice in my head puts a stop to most before I even think of the possibilities. In order to shut that little mouth up, I am going to start, time permitting, pursuing one here and there. It’s a challenge of mine to take an idea and put it out there before I’ve designed and developed the concept. I need to practice, create, have a line, a collection, a business name, photos…. the list goes on. When I put that type of expectation on myself, I make it so big, so early that it becomes unattainable. I throw it out before I start. The truth is though, when I look back at the jewelry I first created, It wasn’t that great. It needed time & a reason to develop. It took years for it to be something that I felt was really me and that I felt deeply proud of.
I’ve been painting with my daughter for a few weeks. I’ve had a little practice with painting in design school, but honestly this is something new to me. Through casually painting with her, my passion for color was stirred. I realized I have a unique view point and style that I would like to develop.There is a quality to water colors that is so loose, flowing, changing, ethereal that I’ve been drawn to for years. I love to see the gradation of color as the pigment runs out. I love how the color absorbs into the paper. I love the imperfection. So, I think I’m going to do some painting. And since I’m an entrepreneur at heart,I I’m going to post them in a new Etsy store and see how it goes. I am going to do my very best to not worry what others might think. If I sell them great! If not, I just put myself out there in a way I never would have before. What’s more exciting than that?
I am excited to see where this goes!
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